“The only way out is in” is a quote from my guru, Anand Mehrotra, spiritual teacher and visionary of Sattva Yoga in Rishikesh, India.
I am a eating, praying, loving cliche
Is it that bad though? To be a cliche of a woman on a mission to evolve, utilizing the world she is living in to serve as a guide?
I’ve named my equally cliche travel blog “Home is Within” because 1. No matter where you travel, or if you don’t travel at all, home is within us, at all times. And, 2. My intention isn’t to promote traveling as the way to evolve as a spiritual being. It is a tool, however not everyone is as fortunate as I am to have the privilege to travel the world and I am not ignorant to this fact. I am an opportunist and I am seizing this opportunity. I believe it wouldn’t be an opportunity if it were not meant for me to take it. The universe has a way of giving us what we want and need when we really want and need it. A woman I consider a close friend and mentor who has traveled the world and is living fabulously in her sixties, Laurie, once told me, “Everything in my life that I’ve ever truly wanted I’ve gotten. If something didn’t work out its because I wasn’t 100% sure I wanted it to”. When I reflect on my life, I can see that has been true for me.
When I turned 29 the desire and calling to travel suddenly hit me like a mack truck to the face, after spending my adolescence in my hometown of Orlando and my entire twenties in Denver with little to no traveling, except to visit family on the East coast and one week long yoga retreat in Costa Rica (albeit that one trip was life altering). My circumstances came together to support me and now at 30 years old, I am living abroad. Currently; Melbourne, Australia.
So what did Anand mean by that phrase; “The only way out is in” ? Out of what? Out of suffering. It has little to do with where you are in time and space. It has everything to do with your ability to be and live fearlessly in truth.
Many people asked me if I’d write a travel blog when I took the leap and let go of my place in Denver, sold or stored all my belongings, and left to live abroad for the unforeseeable future. I tend to be pretty private about my deepest feelings on the internet. However, in the vein of living fearlessly in my truth, blogging might just be the perfect way for me to own it all.
Truth; A few days into this journey and I’m already missing Denver. I love Colorado. I don’t know why I had to leave it. I just knew I did. Perhaps that’s a good place to begin. I’ll answer the questions I get asked most frequently.
What are you looking for by moving abroad? What are you seeking?
I’m looking for more of me. Beyond the self image. The self beyond the self. Beyond the identities I’ve come to be comfortable in within my community. The community I formed over nearly a decade in Denver. Truth: I like that identity. Independent. Successful. Leader. Yet, I want to strip it all away. Just. Be. Me. Vulnerable. Sensitive. Raw.
The other question I get asked a lot is how. How did you do it?
The answer is not going to have anything to do with a blog, and how you too can travel abroad and make an income via blogging. There will not be travel tips and lists here unless they come through organically.
How I did it has been coming together over the last 12 years of my life, unbeknownst to my conscious awareness. I was an eighteen year old high school drop out when I entered Massage Therapy school. I don’t think anyone gets into Massage Therapy because they think they’re going to necessarily gain financial freedom doing it. You don’t agree to spend several hours a day in a dark room, soothing the aching muscles of naked strangers because of the money. You do it because its a calling, because you’re a healer, a person who is highly sensitive, empathic, and compassionate. At least, this is true if you’re really good at it. And chances are, if you’re really good at something, you just might become really successful at it if you’re also persistent AF.
Thats it. Thats what I did to eventually open my own practice and then I had to become really good at something else. Being a leader. Then, eventually, I was able to stop practicing massage myself, and then I was able to stop managing the daily stuff myself. I had a lot more time on my hands (pun intended). I chose to spend that time working on my other passions; Art, acting, writing, getting my heart broken, learning tough life lessons, healing, and travel. Traveling became a way I healed, a way I learned, a way I evolved.
Because evolution is the only way. Everything else is karma. We’re repeating karmic loops, over and over again, until we evolve. At least, thats my experience. How about you?
Evolution led me to travel in Asia mostly. I traveled to 7 countries there in 2 years. I became a Sattva Yoga Teacher in India. I learned kundalini kriyas that have changed my life. Kriyas are evolutionary actions.
New identity alert; I’m a totes enlightened yoga teacher now.
So, the how and the why are intertwined. I’m here because of my identity as a successful business owner, and I’m here because I want to let it go. I let go of all the people, places, and things I love and that made me feel comfortable in Denver so that I can come into my true self, beyond the ego, beyond the mind’s concept of self.
I’m here to write a new story. I love writing and telling stories, have since I was a child. I was drawn to acting, theater, and film because I love being a part of creating stories and bringing them to life. I’m working on a screenplay and its a dream of mine to see it through. But, the point is, we are not our stories, our conditioning, or our carefully crafted self image.
The final question I’ll answer in this blog is whats your plan?
The answer is simple; I have none.
Thank you to those who encouraged me to write this blog, I will try to update it weekly and fill it with my adventures exploring the world – internally and externally. I’ll call on the courage to share what I witness and observe in myself, in my surroundings, and in my reflections in those who I meet along the path.
Happy great American eclipse, may we collectively move towards evolving and living fearlessly in truth in this new era.
Sat Nam – truth is my identity
Elena Rose Davis